i went out to see my sister and my mom... when i got back she said she was leaving... when i asked why, she said she was weirded out by my lack of trust.... i couldnt trust her,, so i hid things... its not her fault, its not like i was lying or anything, but i mean some shit, i just didnt tell her... i am so used to being called names, lectured and torn apart for being 100% honest, that now, i still am scared to let anyone completely in... now the best thing that ever happened to me is gone... she left and im not sure shes ever coming back... and iom not sure who to blame.. i mean its obviously my fault, but did the borg put a fear of trusting into my heart and soul?
i guess i cant blame anyone but myself... but at this point, im so torn and hurt that im not sure what to do... all i know is that what was finally having the semblance of family to me is now gone... the first time i was able to live with someone and love someone, albeiut with an ingrained sense of distrust, has disappeared, probably never to return..... .
this has broken me, i don't know what i will be doing with myself for the next couple of days... i feel almost dead inside... the infamous one.
Very sorry to hear of your situation. If I can make a suggestion it might be good to part for a few days and let the emotional turmoil cool down as it were.
Spend this time aliasing for yourself why your relationship became so distrustful and weak. After a few days she will start missing you and she'll be in a better state to talk.
Have compassion and listen carefully, you may be capable of saving this relationship if you really want to......good luck and all the best
thats right give us your explanation of what personally drew you to the jws.
and what is your opinion of it today ?.
for myself i was born into it so there wasn't really any choice for myself, but now that i've been out of it for some 30 yrs.
Excellent post,....... good reading material gang, must read it through
Funny stuff guys , but I really think these guys were just getting high on power being a controlling master of all those slaves, it's almost biblical when you think about it
thats right give us your explanation of what personally drew you to the jws.
and what is your opinion of it today ?.
for myself i was born into it so there wasn't really any choice for myself, but now that i've been out of it for some 30 yrs.
Thanks Nark. look forward to it
this month marks a year since i reported fs.
i can't remember the last time i felt this proud of an accomplishment.
i have come a long way in my de-programing.
Yes Madame there was one Homer that I recall. He had two hairs on his head and he of course was the guy that watched all the men in the congregation to make
sure they had no hair covering their ears, I got called to the back of the hall by him once for having a whole half inch covering my ears, he said it was
conducting unbecoming of a Christian and I was not allowed to give talks anymore or go out in service....my father was so ashamed of this he wouldn't speak to me for a week or more.
Funny thinking about it now I remember a picture in a WT that had Jesus sitting on a rock talking to people and he had a full beard and long hair past his shoulders and wondered this
is very strange. Yes there were allot of Homer Simpsons in my hall come to think of it, dumb, hypocritical, alcoholics and allot with no brains
thats right give us your explanation of what personally drew you to the jws.
and what is your opinion of it today ?.
for myself i was born into it so there wasn't really any choice for myself, but now that i've been out of it for some 30 yrs.
Thanks for your comments, It's starting to be apparent that there are allot more exer's here that were born into it rather than coming into latter on in life.
That probably has to say something I guess.
so i hear that the wt are selling lots of property; worth millions.
1) they sincerely think the end is soon .
2) they just want the money .
It might be the case that they are aware that the properties they hold are now worth mega millions, and so are possibly cashing out with the gain to build bigger and better facilities
out in one place in Patterson. Or another thought might be they are starting to get shy with all the information about them like whats on the inter-net for example, and their wanting to
relocate themselves out in the country where less eyes are upon them, like a bad little boy about to be caught..............hmmm time will only tell
thats right give us your explanation of what personally drew you to the jws.
and what is your opinion of it today ?.
for myself i was born into it so there wasn't really any choice for myself, but now that i've been out of it for some 30 yrs.
Yep.. know where you folks are coming from, perhaps it's are responsibility to tell are story so that others can be made aware of problems that may arise when people are
thinking of joining this religion, at least thats my viewpoint.
I'm really interested though in why outside people not like us have been drawn to it, I'm looking forward to hearing what they have to say, should be very interesting
this month marks a year since i reported fs.
i can't remember the last time i felt this proud of an accomplishment.
i have come a long way in my de-programing.
You know the master is not going to be happy losing one of his slaves, he's going to be very pissed
You may tick him off and he'll start Armageddon, dam go back, go back...........
thats right give us your explanation of what personally drew you to the jws.
and what is your opinion of it today ?.
for myself i was born into it so there wasn't really any choice for myself, but now that i've been out of it for some 30 yrs.
Thats right give us your explanation of what personally drew you to the JWS. and what is your opinion of it today ?
For myself I was born into it so there wasn't really any choice for myself, but now that I've been out of it for some 30 yrs. or so I can certainly see the damaging effects it has on
individuals and there are many to speak of, noted ones are intellectual growth due to an apathy to education, a social disconnection with ones community including family members,
mental instability like depression and anxiety brought on by the appending Armageddon theory. So there are really many not so good things for the general public and with special emphasis
on children. In short when the perceived power is ignorant it's best for one to walk away from that power or you just might hurt yourself and maybe others.
